Want to share my feelings after a long time. The time passed on being busy with lots of transitions in life. From Holzkirchen to Munich, Sonu from kindergarten to Bavarian International School, my lab moving from Schillerstrasse 44 to Martinsried.
I came back from Durgapur on 15th October,after the most traumatic event of my life since birth. I lost my baba darling, the most honest and simple person I have ever met. He was a caring and friendly being. I know I had occupied a lot of place in his heart and soul and mind. The last few days are so fresh in my mind. I still am not able to accept the fact.
Anyways, after coming back to Munich I tried to start my daily routine as well as Sonu's as early as possible. I am still not able to concentrate. I always feel a heavy heart and a loss, a void inside me. So my wishes could not be fulfilled. I wanted to bring maa baba to Munich next year. I wanted to send him a birthday cake this time. I want to hug him once more. The last time I saw him healthy was in January 2011 when we were in Durgapur after Badsha's wedding.I am the luckiest daughter to have got such a wonderful dad.
The last time he smiled was 4 or 5 days before his death. He smiled and told me that he thinks that he cannot get up anymore from the bed.It was true. He was not aware of what disease he has.He thought he just has jaundice. He hoped everyday to improve but it was just the opposite. I remember the eyes looking at me with so much hope telling me"What are you all planning for me?"A person who hated hospitals, medicines.....was begging to get admitted to the Mission Hospital in Durgapur.He wanted to take all sorts of medical aid...just to LIVE.
I came back from Durgapur on 15th October,after the most traumatic event of my life since birth. I lost my baba darling, the most honest and simple person I have ever met. He was a caring and friendly being. I know I had occupied a lot of place in his heart and soul and mind. The last few days are so fresh in my mind. I still am not able to accept the fact.
Anyways, after coming back to Munich I tried to start my daily routine as well as Sonu's as early as possible. I am still not able to concentrate. I always feel a heavy heart and a loss, a void inside me. So my wishes could not be fulfilled. I wanted to bring maa baba to Munich next year. I wanted to send him a birthday cake this time. I want to hug him once more. The last time I saw him healthy was in January 2011 when we were in Durgapur after Badsha's wedding.I am the luckiest daughter to have got such a wonderful dad.
The last time he smiled was 4 or 5 days before his death. He smiled and told me that he thinks that he cannot get up anymore from the bed.It was true. He was not aware of what disease he has.He thought he just has jaundice. He hoped everyday to improve but it was just the opposite. I remember the eyes looking at me with so much hope telling me"What are you all planning for me?"A person who hated hospitals, medicines.....was begging to get admitted to the Mission Hospital in Durgapur.He wanted to take all sorts of medical aid...just to LIVE.
