Augsburg to Holzkirchen

OOps ! After a long time i got the scope to express myself again. I am here in this page after almost 2months. In this gap i was in a shifting mode. Leaving Augsburg was painful, especially leaving dadu alone there in Ludwig strasse. He was so much broken down at our departure that still that moment is in my nerves. When we reached Warngau, the temporary accommodation which Sandoz had provided for our stay for a month, it was 10.45 pm. The owner of the house came to receive us from the station. We felt quite nice for the first few days especially when didibhai and kajolda came to spend with us for a couple of days. But life became boring after few days....there was no phone, no internet connection. But fortunately i could maintain my regular chats with didibhai. But this detachment from the world was quite helpful in many ways. I could realize how life was before technology was developed. I became more close to God. In certain cases i feel it was an eyeopener for me. I missed my parents and my friends a lot. It was as if God has shown me a path. God has made me realize that i was wrong in certain matters of life. I was In fact too good which is not at all necessary. When we shifted to the other temporary accommodation for 5 days i understood some more values of life. I started reading a e book- Are we good enough . I was astonished to notice that it has solved so many of my problems within a night. The book narrates about a couple who are too busy with life and have similar complications which we all face in our day to day life. I modified myself after reading the whole story.
My Modifications are: I have become more oriented and focused in life now. My focus is my family right now. I have stopped pleasing people . Previously i used to perform many duties to please others. Now a strict no no to that. I am more straightforward now. So what did i gain from that? LOTS. I have lot of time for myself and my family. I take care of my home much better than before. I give peace to my soul and rest to my body. I know this change is difficult to accept by others.But there is not other way to boost up my confidence level and help me manage my Identity Crisis.
Now i am in Holzkirchen which is a very beautiful place. I am in love with this wonderful place and home. Thanks kuntal for this residence. We have a small garden which of course is Not beautiful and colorful now. But after the winter i am surely going to make my dream come true-A heaven's garden. This house is just how i wanted it to be. And we have bought the minimum furnitures to suffice our needs. what else do we want from life? nothing but to make use of the moment. Human nature is we never dwell on the present. we keep pondering how nice our childhood was, keep missing our parents, friends , relatives when we are so far off from them. When we keep thinking all these about our past , we also think how nice it would have been if it was like this and that and so on and so forth... And we forget to live the present. Like at this moment God has blessed me with a nice family, a wonderful cute child and a romantic husband. So instead of thinking about Augsburg and India and the rest of the world i should focus on sonu, how to make his day the best..Thats what i am doing nowadays. Enjoying my world. I want to see my family as OWNER'S PRIDE AND NEIGHBOR'S ENVY. I know i may be visualised as a self centered being, a selfish lady and so on. Only that much? I can stand such comments. But i am happy , that is enough for me. Making others happy is very difficult, but making yourself happy is easy . So I am happy, will be happy throughout.